Austin's Lesbo BBQ

I remember from my days as a college lass, I learned from one of my criminology professors that it was not, in fact, the heat that caused the rise in violent crime rates during the summer months but, rather, an abundance of free time...

Kinda like when people are unemployed...Supposedly, when we're running around without any purpose, we tend to want to punch each other in the face or, alternatively, put a cap in another's ass. Supposedly...

As of lately, I feel like I have cause to argue this claim.

It just seems like there a whole lot of free-floating irritability and anger roaming the street these days...and it's not coming from bored teenagers. People are honking more...shorted tempers and more demands...even my recreational soccer league is plagued with insults, elbow jabs and the occasional fist-a-cuffs.

What gives?

Most of the time, I think it's just me. It's been over a month since I've gotten out of town...my home's being invaded by potential buyers!! and my near future is uncertain (but, when hasn't it been?). Work sucks and I keep trying to look ahead but each hour doesn't go by any faster.

Or maybe it's the current state of the world that's gotten everybody on edge. I know I feel damn helpless when it comes the actions of our world leaders...our country's decisions...you know, war and whatnot.

Eh, it's probably just the heat.

Honestly, I think I always have unfocused angst and cynicism in front of me...I wouldn't exactly say it's getting in the way of my life, but it's damn unshakable. Even if the world was perfect, I'd probably doubt it.

I'll tell you what I AM looking forward to, though...getting rid of all my "stuff." I've been gradually down-grading for several years now. A little here and there...selling when I need the cash...donating when it's just time for it to go...but, my current actions are the most drastic.

It's scary...and interesting and exciting. My prediction is that I'll feel more free and mobile...or maybe I'll feel like a destitute loser.

I'm just curious enough to find out. I figure the end state is about as predictable as anything else...