Austin's Lesbo BBQ

Hi.

I'm back. I'd like to first say 'thank you' to all my friends who offered up their sympathy. I really appreciate it.

In general, I'm really glad that I went up to Massachusetts for the funeral. Although I've never been all that close to my grandmother, I would've regretted it for the rest of my life if I chose delivering pizzas over going to the service. On the up side, I was able to enjoy seeing my family that I rarely get to see...It has been over three years since I've been up that way.

Since I've been back, I've been attempting to re-ground myself in reality...and as I stated in the previous post, this seems to be a difficult thing to do during the holidays when everything appears surreal anyway. Time will smooth it all over, I'm sure of it...I hate it when I'm feeling so out of it that I can't even find music that fits...I've finally settled on jamming out to The Bolshoi's "Away"...although it has no significant meaning, at least I get to test and retest my ability to hit the high note during the chorus...AWAY!...AWAYYAYAYHEEHEEHEE! Yeah. I still can't do it.

Meanwhile, there's a slew of other things that are coming my way in the next few weeks...a friend's wedding, a possible business start up opportunity (and, no, it doesn't involve illicit substances or becoming familiar with a particular street corner), heading back to 'start' with bartender stalking or possibly just jumping straight to 'end’, and, of course, that day where I'm supposed to come up with things to put under the elf and/or angel adorned pokey tree.

If my typing box holds up long enough, I promise that, in the future, I'll post something uplifting and cheery. Maybe some warm stuff about kitties, flowers, clouds or unicorns...