10.31.2004
and I dress this way just to keep them at bay...cause Halloween is everyday
I'm not the one that's so absurd! Sorry, I've had that song stuck in my head for the past week..ee bop ee bop bop...
Today, I've been thinking about the past year...kinda like one might do on New Year's Eve, only it's Halloween and more evil. Ok. Not really...but, one year ago I moved into the house that I currently live in, broke up with my girlfriend of 2+ years and made some all-around changes.
All in all, I've had a great year. I've done so much fun stuff and made some more fun changes that all contributed to a happier me. So much better than two years before this one...not that I was incredibly miserable or anything, but I do remember TRYING to have fun last Halloween...going out to parties and hanging out with friends...and even attempting to smile was serious a effort...just to keep people from asking me what was wrong.
It's so weird...I wasn't able to see how unhappy I was until I made these changes for myself...then I started realizing that the real me was happy, not depressed all the time. I wasn't sick...I didn't need medication...I needed to fucking do something for myself!
SO...there's my thoughts on the past year in a nutshell...as for today, it's Halloween! How fun..but, as I stated earlier, I'm not too into the whole thing. I have a very minimal costume to display while I deliver pizzas this evening. Then I believe I've been talked into going to the bar to close out the night...I don't know, I love my bar, but not when it's super crowded with a bunch of makuped and masked people.
We'll see...
Today, I've been thinking about the past year...kinda like one might do on New Year's Eve, only it's Halloween and more evil. Ok. Not really...but, one year ago I moved into the house that I currently live in, broke up with my girlfriend of 2+ years and made some all-around changes.
All in all, I've had a great year. I've done so much fun stuff and made some more fun changes that all contributed to a happier me. So much better than two years before this one...not that I was incredibly miserable or anything, but I do remember TRYING to have fun last Halloween...going out to parties and hanging out with friends...and even attempting to smile was serious a effort...just to keep people from asking me what was wrong.
It's so weird...I wasn't able to see how unhappy I was until I made these changes for myself...then I started realizing that the real me was happy, not depressed all the time. I wasn't sick...I didn't need medication...I needed to fucking do something for myself!
SO...there's my thoughts on the past year in a nutshell...as for today, it's Halloween! How fun..but, as I stated earlier, I'm not too into the whole thing. I have a very minimal costume to display while I deliver pizzas this evening. Then I believe I've been talked into going to the bar to close out the night...I don't know, I love my bar, but not when it's super crowded with a bunch of makuped and masked people.
We'll see...
